mood: like an elephant

I hate feeling this way...when you think your own body has expanded like a balloon. And you just feel sick and disgusted when looking at yourself in the mirror and pictures. I'm having one of those phases at the moment. :/ Even though my friends tell me 'you have lost weight', it sounds sooo untrue...about the way I see myself. I don't want to go back to that low self-esteem girl again..

It must be because I have not been to the gym in 9months! When 2 years before I had been going consistently. I'm thinking of joinin up again, but just thinking of how hectic my life is already...I could only fit my workouts during lunch. Funny how I rant about how appearance isn't the most important aspect of the person, yet I wish it for myself. It's terrible, but the truth in this world - looking more appealing attracts more opportunities. :/ How shite is that? But does looking nice really make you happy? hmmm...

I had a busy weekend. Had a 19th on friday & a 21st on Sat. Father's day on sun, and I'm just buggered. :/ Imagine me bouncing around again...hehe after all these months of being a granny. To join the gym or not to join? That is the question..

ahh the balloon feeling =P ! in my case, i feel like a hippo! hahahhh.. hope you are doing well! &&..dont be so hard on yourself! =))))))) take care girl!
» kimchee on 2005-09-09 09:23:17

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